AIM

My aim obviously wants to travel the world. Solo travel is okay but it will be more fun if traveling with travel partner. Yes, its true I need to handle and deal with travel partner tantrums and moods but it will more fun! We can talk, discuss and of course took my picture. Unfortunately, it's hard to find travel partner because not everyone wants to travel. 

the new version of FARAH AFRINA

Bismillah, it been so long I did not open this blog. I can't accept that I write all the post before, BODOH. My level of stupidity at that time is getting high and high. Just because I've been rejected I sacrifice my happiness, I rather cry all night than hang out with my friends. Alhamdulillah, slowly I found my happiness by traveling. I have been struggling all by myself to find the happiness, I don't want to waste my time to the person that not appreciate the existing of me. I am fully moving on from your world. I have been hurt too long, I don't want to repeat the same thing again.

Thank you to the person that has been rejecting me 5years ago, it makes me stupid but gives the power to stand up by myself. It makes me bold and independent. Thank you so much. I love the new version of myself even I've been more stubborn and not easy to handle but at least, I did not hurt my heart again. Do not ask me how to moving on, I don't have a specific answer but don't stop praying to be a better person. 

It seems so crazy when you very hard to love, then you fall in love with the wrong person. This is wrong. I believe with all my heart, there will be someone for me and I will someone special for him. It matters of time. I need to keep the focus on what I want for my life and at the right time, the right man will come to me. I hope at that time my heart is already for someone new. Someone that eager wants to know more about myself, someone that can be my best friend, someone that can be my savior, someone that can be my guardian and someone that can be my soulmate forever. In shaa Allah. 

fe

Aku tahu akan ada seseorang ditakdirkan untuk aku, Aku percaya benda tu. 

deh

My heart produce something that very precious, its called LOVE. But not everyone know its very valuable. Im sorry for loving you. im sorry i can't to unlove you. 

just for fun

Bila menangis tanpa airmata. Bila sedih dengan senyuman. Bila hati terluka tanpa disedari. Bila segala pengorbanan diabaikan. Bila segala usaha seperti dibutakan. Hati mana yang gembira, hati mana yang rela dihancurkan. Entah kenapa segala torehan ini bagaikan tiada parut. Hati ini bertabah dan mengharapkan keajaibaan yang sukar sekali untuk menjadi realiti. Bila dipendam semakin sakit, bila dilepaskan seperti tidak berbaloi. Maafkan hatiku menyukai dirimu. Bukan segaja aku menyukai dirimu. aku menunggu waktu dimana aku dapat melihat dirimu. walau dari jauh, walau bersama orang lain. aku ingin melihat dirimu. 

heart

remembering he every day in every things that i do is something happy to hear but its something hurt for me. trying erase all thing about him is not very easy. every day i was like hoping that u may ask about me to my friends. try to stalk me. try to follow my instagram my twitter but its seem that something that never become a reality just fantasy to me. its hurt when remembering you. i don't know what to do with all this. 

friends that know me they know how suffering i am with all this. sometimes i hope that i lost all the memory behind about him. just to get my life back. it suffer me a lot. 

please stop asking why i love him, why i like him. i just do. I JUST DO . i know where it start where the beginning and now i cant see where its stop and i cant see the end road of my love to him. 

i don't know what happen to me. i don't know what makes me love me. i don't know that he is the one that i love most. i don't know it will be end like this. i don't know either he like me or not. i don't know i don't know. but the only thing that i know , i love him just the first time i fall in love with him.

I still remember all about him. he smile, he laugh, the way he talk, the way he walk, the way he sleep. its seems beautiful to me. i just want see that charming creation again. 

i know what i say all about seem very impossible to me. but in every my du'a my sujood he name slowly come from my heart hoping that i will meet you again with a more better way. ITS SEEM IMPOSSIBLE. i know that. but what can i do except berdoa. 

de

if u get what u want,u never try to keep it. Because it already yours. 

Sometimes u just need to be alone. Spoon & nutella enough for me. 

HAHA not because im laughing but try to make u laugh. 

hi

Seems quite long didnt write blog. yeah, try to move on. almost 2 years dah. try to calm my heart. try to busy myself. try to rebuild my confident. its not easy but i must. Ya Allah, macam mana aku boleh suka sayang lelaki yang ta pernah aku bercakap ta pernah bersembang. Perit sebenarnya. everything useless in he eyes.