Bismillah, it been so long I did not open this blog. I can't accept that I write all the post before, BODOH. My level of stupidity at that time is getting high and high. Just because I've been rejected I sacrifice my happiness, I rather cry all night than hang out with my friends. Alhamdulillah, slowly I found my happiness by traveling. I have been struggling all by myself to find the happiness, I don't want to waste my time to the person that not appreciate the existing of me. I am fully moving on from your world. I have been hurt too long, I don't want to repeat the same thing again.
Thank you to the person that has been rejecting me 5years ago, it makes me stupid but gives the power to stand up by myself. It makes me bold and independent. Thank you so much. I love the new version of myself even I've been more stubborn and not easy to handle but at least, I did not hurt my heart again. Do not ask me how to moving on, I don't have a specific answer but don't stop praying to be a better person.
It seems so crazy when you very hard to love, then you fall in love with the wrong person. This is wrong. I believe with all my heart, there will be someone for me and I will someone special for him. It matters of time. I need to keep the focus on what I want for my life and at the right time, the right man will come to me. I hope at that time my heart is already for someone new. Someone that eager wants to know more about myself, someone that can be my best friend, someone that can be my savior, someone that can be my guardian and someone that can be my soulmate forever. In shaa Allah.