remembering he every day in every things that i do is something happy to hear but its something hurt for me. trying erase all thing about him is not very easy. every day i was like hoping that u may ask about me to my friends. try to stalk me. try to follow my instagram my twitter but its seem that something that never become a reality just fantasy to me. its hurt when remembering you. i don't know what to do with all this.
friends that know me they know how suffering i am with all this. sometimes i hope that i lost all the memory behind about him. just to get my life back. it suffer me a lot.
please stop asking why i love him, why i like him. i just do. I JUST DO . i know where it start where the beginning and now i cant see where its stop and i cant see the end road of my love to him.
i don't know what happen to me. i don't know what makes me love me. i don't know that he is the one that i love most. i don't know it will be end like this. i don't know either he like me or not. i don't know i don't know. but the only thing that i know , i love him just the first time i fall in love with him.
I still remember all about him. he smile, he laugh, the way he talk, the way he walk, the way he sleep. its seems beautiful to me. i just want see that charming creation again.
i know what i say all about seem very impossible to me. but in every my du'a my sujood he name slowly come from my heart hoping that i will meet you again with a more better way. ITS SEEM IMPOSSIBLE. i know that. but what can i do except berdoa.